woww 2 whole months without an update.... dun worry im still alive :)
just got back to malaysia yesterday afternoon... i really miss home so much... but i find that i cannot recognise many of the roads n cant even direct my frens to my hse anymore.. well not like i was much of a map before but after a year away ive become totally road blind... n i havent started driving yet haha cant trust myself to do it yet.
man i think im just dramatising everything.
ive been trying to avoid thinking bout my future but the question jus pops up everytime my mind is idle - what the hell am i gonna do now that i have graduated?? i think the old adage is true... that graduating equals redundancy... well for my case anyway. just to clear up the clutter in my mind a little i think i'll list my options down:
1. go back to york for masters
2. go look for a job in uk
3. job hunt in malaysia
4. further my studies elsewhere, not in the uk
5. ucl + yale masters
the main thing i have going for the 1st option is coz york offered me a partial scholarship n that it is neuroscience n of course coz it's york. but i oso dunwana go back precisely coz it's york, if u catch my drift. masters elsewhere in the world is an option too because im sick of the uk but wouldnt like to give up studying. though im also entertaining the idea of working coz im sick of studying. as for the last option it is still an option only coz it involves yale. anything with yale thrown into the bargain is an attractive option. n'est ce pas? haha which reminds me.. i jus passed my french level 2. compare it with the distinction i got for level 1. haha.
my 2nd night back home n im not free from worries.... from that idiot of a future devil gripping me round my throat.. every day that passes seems to me harbinger of my eventual 'death' if i dun release myself from this grip soon.... is my undecidedness and fickle-mindedness gonna be my downfall? the death of me really?
there i go being the drama queen again. as ever. mebbe i shud jus consider acting as a clown. | 
